Time to step back. Close my eyes and remember that tomorrow is another day. I will get better at taking care of me because I have no choice. I have to get this right. Not only for me but for my daughter. So she can know that it’s okay to take care of your own needs. For my son. So he can know that it asking for and seeking help makes you strong. For my husband. So he doesn’t have to play therapist with me every day.
I’ve been playing this song all day, dedicated it to the this little thing called “unworthiness” and how it will not plague me any more.
Lyrics:
I apologize for what I’ve done
I admit that I was losing control
Didn’t know that I was selling my soul
To someone who didn’t care at all
Couldn’t see that you were bad for me
Gave so much till it was making me weak
Now I can’t believe the way that it feels
To finally be free
I’ve moved on and I’m strong
I’m going back to the place where I know I belong
And I’m glad that you’re gone
‘Cause you’re not what I need, I’m believing in me
I moved on and I’m strong
I’m going back to the place where I know I belong
‘Cause I’m right and you’re wrong
‘Cause you’re not what I need, this time I’m believing in me
The love I had for you was so deep
I didn’t notice there was something wrong with me
When someone asked me was there anything I need
I would cry and tell them, pray for me
But now I know exactly what it is
So I’m changing up the way that I live
I’m never letting go of my dreams
And baby, you’ll see
I’ve moved on and I’m strong
I’m going back to the place where I know I belong
And I’m glad that you’re gone
‘Cause you’re not what I need, I’m believing in me
I moved on and I’m strong
Going back to the place where I know I belong
‘Cause I’m right and you’re wrong
You’re not what I need, I’m finally believing in me
So, I hope you can forgive me
I’m not gonna be the way that I used to be
Starting over can be so scary
But I’m gonna believe
Promise, I’m not gonna let me down
And my transformations starting right now
But I’m really glad you stuck around
‘Cause you believed in me
So, I’ve moved on and I’m strong
I’m going back to the place where I know I belong
And I’m glad that you’re gone
‘Cause you’re not what I need, I’m believing in me
I moved on and I’m strong
Going back to the place where I know I belong
‘Cause I’m right and you’re wrong
You are not what I need, I finally believe in me
Finally, finally believe in me, me, me