Confession time: I’m worn out

I can’t even count the number of times I’ve written a post similar to this one.

I am so TIRED. Damn. Can I get an “Amen”?

When I get to bedtime, I literally leap for joy. This is me:

 

Motherhood, for some reason, has been more draining, more emotional, more EVERYTHING lately I dunno, maybe it’s because I’m home more now.

They aren’t being bad kids – they’re just kids and I’m just not used to the 24/7 needs and wants. Even though my daughter is four now, she’s still short and can’t do a bunch of stuff without me. My son, who’s two, is even less independent so all day long it’s: “Mommy, may I have some water?” “May I have a cookie?” “A banana?” “More yogurt, please.” “Can we watch Cars?” “I have to go pee!”

It seems like I’m always in the running for World’s Least Patient Mother. This is not good. I am taking a couple days to figure out what my deal is. I want to be a good mother – no, a GREAT mother – so I have to keep pressing forward. I have to.

Comments

  1. Girl, i LOVE bedtime too!!! Its my favorite time of the day these days as well. lol. I definitely feel you on that.
    .-= Yakini´s last blog ..2010 Year In Review =-.

    • mercedies says:

      i really agree i have a 4 year old girl and a 2 year old boy.and when bed time comes somtimes i feel like i am floating on clouds.i love my kids to death but its very hard,and i am a stay at home mom.

  2. I second this confession! I just was having a thought yesterday about how I would really cherish a moment in the bathroom alone for once-which I think is either really sad or just me wanting to scream! My 6-year old can’t be entertained enough and the 1 1/2 year old stays on my heels, also always in need of something. There’s more frustration added on to the fact that the hubby really doesn’t ‘participate’ much.

    Breath, stretch, relax and release is all I can repeat!

  3. Hang in there woman. That is exactly what motherhood is all about. I seriously commend you for doing all you do with two kids, husband and everything else that you are doing on the side plus oh, grad school. I think you need a vacation. *wink*

    Blessing
    info@workingmomjournal.com

  4. Tara, I applaud you for writing a post that is so totally honest. You are already an amazing mother. Really. It’s just a transition that you’ve been going through. It CAN NOT be easy to go from a working mom to a work at home mom. It just can’t. And because you’re there 24/7, your lovely babies go to you… 24/7. I know you can press forward. I have moments like these too. And this too shall pass.

    PS: You gotta love bedtime!
    .-= Alicia @Mommy Delicious´s last blog ..How I Made It Through =-.

  5. Give yourself a break young lady! You are not the only one who looks forward to bedtime!! That time before I fall asleep when the house is still is the only time I get to breathe and collect my thoughts.
    And know that you already are a GREAT Mother, your kids know it. Your husband knows it. And we all know it.
    *hugs*
    ps. love the photo/video lolol made me laugh :)

  6. Tracie Bruns says:

    I totally agree with you hun! I’m in between jobs with an 8 year old boy, 4 year old girl, 3 year old boy and a 5 month old baby boy. Somedays it can get to be very hectic, but I wouldn’t trade it for anything! Keep your head up!

  7. Amen from Atlanta!
    .-= Sojourner Marable Grimmett´s last blog ..The Grimmett Family – Photo Shoot =-.

  8. I so know how you feel. Except I’m looking forward to the days both my kids are old enough to actually SAY what they want. My 20 month old doesn’t talk much yet and neither does my 4 month old obviously. Usually my 20 month old is pretty good and can ask for a drink or a snack but lately it’s all whining and temper tantrums when he wants something. And my 4 month old is teething so you can imagine how fun that is. Haha.
    .-= Danielle´s last blog ..Can We Really Count On Angel Care Monitors =-.

  9. Oh girl, I soooooo feel you!!!!!! I’m 23 with a 21month old son….he’s getting ready for those terrible twos….but to me, it seems like he’s been it since he turned 15 months!! He’s alwayssss asking for anything and everything! Always getting into everything!!! The hubby does help out, but ya know, we mommies do like to do thingsOUR way!!! So I feel you when you say you feel like your impatient cause I feel that way too 80% of the day!! But my sons kisses and hugs let’s me know I’m doing a good job and he loves me no matter how much I lose my patience! lol

  10. Oh girl, I soooooo feel you!!!!!! I’m 23 with a 21month old son….he’s getting ready for those terrible twos….but to me, it seems like he’s been it since he turned 15 months!! He’s alwayssss asking for anything and everything! Always getting into everything!!! The hubby does help out, but ya know, we mommies do like to do thingsOUR way!!! So I feel you when you say you feel like your impatient cause I feel that way too 80% of the day!! But my sons kisses and hugs let’s me know I’m doing a good job and he loves me no matter how much I lose my patience! lol :)

  11. Seriously: that’s me quite often too. No worries; we all experience it. Keep pressing forward, you’re doing great!
    .-= jess; [the bottle chronicles]´s last blog ..Pictures of Our Christmas Festivities =-.

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